Friday, September 28, 2007

Fire knives


So heres the thing...
theres this guy (isnt there always)
and i think i like him but i cant tell cuz i've only known him for like 4 hours.
I met him at a luau so i will probably never see him again...=[
the worst part is i think he liked me too. there was a definate genuine interest in me.
so the story starts with im at this luau and its now my turn to get a polinesian tattoo (not real obviously) and the guy who i sit gown in front of asks me what i wanted and i tell him i was thinking of a turtle on my ankle. so he places my foot on his leg and gets started... we were talking the whole time.
he asked: "why are you in hawaii"
i said: "just here on vacation with the family"..." imn also checking out, um , university of Hawaii while im here"
him: "ah nice school not many schools u can go to where you get out of class and go surfing or study on the beach"
me: "nope not too many"
him:"its definately a major party school though, hope your up for it"
me: haha "i'll definately make a note of that"
him: so you're a senior in highschool?
me: a junior
him: ah a junior
then he was finished with my tattoo and i stood up and handed him a $5 tip of sorts (it was technically free but some ppl were giving money anyways) and he looked at me with eager eyes and said: "I definately hope to see you again"
and i said: "yeah, definately"

oh my goodness i was in blissfull shock. a boy, obviously several years older than me, a college boy, was just flirting with me.
now if you read this and didnt know me you would think, "so what, boys flirt with girls all the time" but you don't understand, boys dont flirt with me. They flirt with other girls, but never with me. And the fact that he was a college boy made it all the better. And it wasn't like he was some dork or anything, he was hot. oh i forgot to mention that he was half naked at the time of our encounter. well he was half naked the entire evening.

ok it sounds like im speculating alot and if the only thing that happened was that then i definately was overreacting...but there's more.

After the evening was over we went to go pic up our pictures (because we had gotten a picture with him and my brother a picture with someone else) and after we payed i had him sign it (unfortunately my brother was in the picture he totally ruined it for me) and he signed : Aloha Tamalii and he put a little heart under it. when i saw that i almost died. tangible proof that he liked me. i was stainding in his general area later waithing for my brother to get his other pic signed and i noticed he didnt sign anyone elses with a heart. after he signed it he handed it to me instead of my mom who had just paid for it and told him to sign it. i talked to him alittle more bout college before my mom showed up.
before i got the picture i walked up to the table and he asked me "your from texas right?"
i smiled and said "yup thats me"
he lauged and said well i hope to see you in 2 years when you come to school here. my mom showed up paid for the pic, he signed (with that pretty little heart) and then i talked to him some more (unfortunatly mom was there) and he said that he was going to some college in the area i dont remember what he said and he was studying fire knife. thats the dude who does the fire dancing =) then he said goodbye and he told me again "i really hope to see you in 2 years"
i said: "me too" and smiled and walked away. I will proably never see him again in my life =[
and i think at the moment its killing me. i cant get him out of my mind and i think im going to end up dreaming about him. the wierdest thing ever was at the luau tonight whenever i couldnt see him for a while (weather he was backstage or just on the other side of the complex) i would start to get queasy. wierd i know. then the whole was home i felt sick and i couldnt get him out of my mind. i tryed reading my book which under most cirrcumstances would have done a very good job of distracting me but i only read like 2 pgs in the entire 30 min it took to get to the hotel. i was just so distraceted. and the worst part was (again), i would probably never see him
again.

life sucks like that

well i know i sound like a litte girl and that its stupid but this is how i feel and since pretty much no one reads this, its essentially my diary.
well hope you had a nice little romance short story that ends on a very depressing note.
buh bye

Friday, September 14, 2007

Math

So here's the thing
I've been in school for 2 weeks, doing great loving all my classes (except history which i'll never love) and on the last day of the second week I find out that my math teacher was fired!
i Loved her! the way she explained things made SO much sense to me. Math isn't always my favorite, kinda depends on how well i understand it and what teacher i have, but this year it was my favorite subject. I looked foward to it EVERY time. And i had high hopes that i would do REALLY well this year in math. acctually i knew i would but now...
AH!
well i know the new teacher and i love her but i dont like that way she explains things. I didnt get any of it. granted it could have partially been that i was upset why i didnt understand it all. but i mean, i was on the verge of tears at the end of class due to frustration from not being able to do the problems she assigned us.
I'm going to try to remain hopefull and have a good attitude about it. but unless her teaching style chages drastically then this school year is gunna suck!

BUT...

I do have Hawaii to look foward to. Two weeks off! i leave on saturday which acctually i whould be packing for right now. oops.
Well i'll finish up
call/text me or sumthin while im in hawaii
im not sure how cell phones work while im there but i'll see if i can call to keep in touch

Friday, September 7, 2007

first week is over

Well since the first week of school is over i though i would update my list that i made at the beginning of the week.
dont worry i wont be doing this every week that would be really boring


I STILL don't know if I like that i only go to school 2 days a week.
I NOW know my homework load isn't going to be too bad.
I NOW know I'm not jelous of my brother's Math teacher cuz mine is way more awesome.
I STILL know that my social life is almost non-existant.
I NOW know that i dont have to wake up at 5am and im still ok with it.
I NOW know how people have changed over the summer, most of them for the good.
I STILL don't know if i like that im almost the oldest at school, but im staring to lean towars don't like.
I NOW know that I like my other 3 class mates.
I STILL know that im going to miss my COS friends after robotics is over; Libby, Brandon, Joshua, Wilson, Sammy and all those Awesome people.
I STILL don't know how good of a captain I'm going to be for the Robotics Team, I might acctually resign cuz of time issues.
I STILL know i feel like a HUGE nerd when i say im that captain of the robotics team.
I STILL dont know if im even going to like robotics.
I STILL know that I LOVE having ballet classes on saturday, but it could be problamatic in a few cases.
I STILL know that cecchetti exams are going to be hard work.
I STILL don't know how good my choreographed piece for exams is going to be.
I STILL know that pretty much every month has something freaking awesome to mark it:
September '07: Hawaii
October '07:Pine Cove Work Weekend, Cecchetti Confrence, and FF5 Concert
November '07: Dance Revolution
December '07: Chritmas in Rhode Island and Skiing in Maine
January '08: Pine Cove
Februaury '08: My Sweet 16
March '08: Ski Trip and Cecchetti confrence

I STILL know that this year better be better than last year or i might die.
I STILL know that my new trailer is frekin awesome and i cant wait to go camping in it!
I STILL know i LOVE my Ssmall Group leaders this year.
I STILL know i need to loose about 10-15 more pounds to be at goal weight.
I STILL don't know if i will, but i hope I have a boyfriend this year, but i doubt it will be either of my 2 male classmates, and i better not get asked out by any freaking freshman, i think that would just depress me.
I STILL know that dance this year should, no, WILL be awesome!
I STILL know im going to LOVE hawaii!
I STILL don't know if this one person will ever be as close as we were before.
I STILL don't know if i even want that person to be close.
I STILL know i want to be closer friends with another person, but i dont know if he does too.
I STILL know i wish i had a best friend again, someone who calls to tell me every thing and i call to tell everything too. Someone who loves to hang out with me and we can talk about anything. But he or she doesn't seem to exist for me.
I STILL know that the only way i can get through this school year is with God's help